My Fear of Being on Camera and Procrastination
Last year during a corporate presentation that I was assigned to, I discovered a crippling fear that I have:
I hate being on camera, being recorded and my own recorded voice.
It’s easy to say that the job didn’t go well and ever since I was trying to figure out how to overcome this fear.
By the end of last year, I’ve decided that I would record myself and do it consistently to overcome it.
it was going very well.
I recorded the first video after many takes (because it felt so cringy and uncomfortable), but I’ve managed to do that and publish it.
But then a little voice in my head slowly crippled in:
“You’re gonna look stupid”
“People are going to judge you”
“Why bother, it’s not like it’s a mandatory skill that you have to master”
“You can do that tomorrow…”
Tomorrow turned into days and the days in weeks.
I’ve finally realized that this is the very voice that kept me from so many opportunities,
so I said to myself:
“Fuck it. I’m gonna look stupid and I don’t care. I cannot give in to this lazy part of me. it needs to go away!”
So half an hour before going out that night, I literally grabbed my phone and start recording a video.
This is a big way to say fuck you to your lazy side and kick his ass.
Like a very wise man once said:
“You cannot master anything if you’re not willing to look like a fool first.”
Well, this is my promise to myself that I can and I should do better and expect only the best from me.
If you have a crippling fear, fight it! don’t let it dominate you.
You kick ass and you deserve better.
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